I don't really know what to say right now, but I feel like a post is necessary.
I'm sitting here, watching TV (new years performances), and listening to people talk in the background. I've just uploaded my photos of this whole summer/fall semester.
What I want for next year: better grades, more sleep, more singing, eating better, get a boyfriend.
And here's my topic for this post, I guess.
Honestly, I think I just miss -having- a boyfriend. I miss having someone to talk to about things that's just mine. Like, I know I can just talk to all my friends about all my problems, but, well, call it possessiveness or jealousy or something, but I really want someone who's just mine, not someone who's everyone's. I don't think that's too much to ask, is it?
I feel kinda bad that a lot of my best friends are guys who have girlfriends. I'm a bit of a jealous and possessive person (as you could probably tell from the paragraph before). I'm taking up their time, complaining about my stuff. And that's the thing. I'm always complaining about stuff. I rage and I rage and I bitch and moan and complain. So I wonder if they feel weird about me, talking with their boyfriends that much.
Another thing is I don't have that many super close female friends. Most of my friends are male, and younger than me. (The younger than me might make it harder to find a boyfriend, not going to lie...) So I talk to a lot of guys. I wonder if that's just sending wrong signals? I don't know.
Happy new years!